No Stupid Questions

I've used a towel style bath mat for decades, I think it's the most hygenic. It goes on the floor to shower, then gets hung to dry between showers.

I lay floors and hadn't seen a "permanent" bath mat in years but ran into one today. It was that typical shag rug style, bright pink. This was a clean house but it was strange to me, I didn't think anyone used those anymore.

Like, it can't be a real person, right? Has anyone tried following the links? I'm curious how they're scamming people. It just seems like anyone getting the same message 5 times won't fall for being catfished, so I don't understand what their strategy is.

someone here must know

i think my parents caused me to exist just so i take care of them when they are old. they sent love to my direction but they didn't love me. they loved their insurance plan, themselves (they saw their being in me), what they feel about themselves (through me). i was not allowed to exist peacefully or mind my own business. i was not allowed to have a preference or emotion. i am 10 and 14 years younger than my siblings. they knew my predecessors weren't gonna be stupid enough. they hate each other. pretty much anything originating from them were negative. this family was a theatre. it takes a certain level of wretchedness to do this. and these people were what i know of humans. so i didn't like humans.

anyways, at some point, i met many different people in a short amount of time. my opinion of humans improved.

two of them (women) made me feel more alive but i didn't get close to them physically despite being pulled by them really hard.

then i forced myself to practice being physically close to people (women). it was very difficult.

meanwhile in therapy i realized i avoid intimacy really hard

last two points combined led to some new observations

i think at least one person loved me. i never saw someone looking at me like that before. i think maybe they sensed my background and how i dealt with it. she treated me like i'm her kid and at some point she acted like my kid. i don't remember a similar experience at such level. she wasn't sexual like some others. she felt more wholesome

and i feel weird about it. like what the fuck is even love? what do i do with it? do i eat it? keep it? store it? grow it? do i let it exist by itself? i am asking stupid things but it is just kinda weird.

how do i cope with this positive thing?

i am kinda trying to get myself used to this concept so i can stop avoiding intimacy. i am still avoiding, really hard. but if i stop avoiding, i'll find myself in a relationship probably quickly

i probably don't know what i don't know too.

back to what do to with love?... do i fuck it? i know what to be and how to be i think, but it feels like too much change if i go there. a whole ass human depending on you or giving herself to you in every way is weird. too much responsibility or too much power. idk. it feels like too much of a bond. its like two people are chained to each other kind of thing.. and she expects me to control that bond however i want. also its no longer just me. right now i am an independent singular consciousness. i can go anywhere, live anywhere, do whatever. i am actually in top 0.1-0.01% in terms of freedom. but if i let things happen, a woman is gonna be always around me lol. and i will have to make plans for her and deal with stuff. then a family reeeee. people get used to everything so maybe my future family will become boring too?

again, love feels weird. maybe they just love what i might provide to them. maybe there is no such thing as love and it is arrogance or stupidity to expect it to exist

also this might be like a drug. this person can feed me love and take everything in return and i might be ok with it. my brother did that but obviously that's a different type of love

i was thinking about that recently, if that is a huge distance, does someone see the same night sky?? the same moon and stars?? because it's a big distance i think, it would make sense for them to maybe see another set of stars further away from the ones that i see!!

i was talking about this with my long distance husband recently, if at night, he sees the same stars i see!!!

Either all at once, or over a lifetime?

Like I can predict which body part would suddenly move and what direction it'll move in and move there to minimize how forceful the movement is. I've been searching all over for years and I have no idea what causes it. It happens more when I'm cold lol. It doesn't affect my quality of life or anything it's just some weird unexplained thing.

I have a feeling they're gonna charge like $200 to $400 more then blame the regulators.

Its been some time since xitter, reddit, and other sites began paywalling their API, causing third party integrations and apps to collapse.

I'm wondering, did any of these sites end up with paying customers for the API? Are there examples of third parties paying to continue their services? These sites sacrificed massive amounts of community and developer good will to privatize the internet - how did it work out for them long term?

An autocratic country could easily spread propaganda in the democratic country, because of "free speech" rules that most democratic countries have, but a democratic country cannot easily spread its propaganda in the autocratic country.

An autocratic country can buy an election in the democratic country, but the democratic country cannot easily coup an autocratic country.

Are all democracies are doomed to fail?

Is the future of humanity, autocracy? For the rest of humanity's existence?

my ex-boyfriend sam (19m) of a few years has been my longest relationship (as i’m still young). he ghosted me and i started to lose feelings for him. however, i still had hope.

he also “forgot” about me when he would give gifts to other people, wouldn’t mention me under “people he appreciates” but would mention everyone else, and wouldn’t even tell people abt me.

due to all this, i started to question actually being a lesbian who was only into guys because of comphet.

however, last night, when he finally saw my messages (he doesn’t use social media a lot), he apologized and said he should’ve done something other than ghost his gf. he agreed that we should break up, and said he was being this way due to mental health problems, and that if we got back together, he’d be a better bf.

he explained he still had feelings for me and would love to still be friends.

that’s when i realized that i had genuine feelings for him that were still there, not just comphet. i always loved him and felt sad when it seemed he didn’t love me the same way.

i understand he’s not ready for a relationship rn, and i think he should take his time. i also am not quite ready due to this being so recent and the fact that we haven’t done actual couple stuff in a while.

but after a while, when he gets better, hopefully we’ll still have feelings and both be good partners (better than we were then). after all, even if the not including me thing isn’t an excuse, the ghosting was due to poor mental health which he can’t control.

so i guess i’d also be biromantic with a preference for women.

i hope we can make this work >w<

another one is, have you had allergies since you last donated?

i know some people just say to lie for every question. technically they screen every donation, but it's not supposedly a reliable test for something like HIV.

i'm pretty sure i'm just allergic to reality. sometimes just constant sneezing, even when i'm on an antihistamine.

obviously best to just be aware of one's behavior and risk factors. do they do this just avoid liability?

Someone had asked this elsewhere but then deleted their own post and I don't know why! I was meaning to come back to it and read it, so rest assured that I won't delete this one as there were some really interesting stories of unconventional ways people landed their work.

TL;DR: I got headhunted after directly emailing dozens of people and pitching myself as an available, on-call substitute in my line of work, instead of submitting job applications traditionally.

As for me, I cold-pitched myself via Google Maps and other searches as an available substitute to those in my skilled trade (upon moving to a different region) in basically a 50-mile radius, and eventually word of my availability reached a large, overarching institution that connected me with an organization that had a full-time opening. It took me probably 4-5 months from the move to the job offer.

Edit: My story is actually a little more complicated than that, now that I recall the details from years ago; there wasn't actually a full-time opening at my now-workplace at the time, haha. What happened was that I was briefly interviewed and quickly hired as an assistant to an overwhelmed director who ended up getting massively sick and nearly died from COVID, so I subbed as the director. They had been having interpersonal problems with her and I rapidly noticed them in the weeks before she got sick and warned them of her. While I wasn't trying to take her place, the higher-ups said they were aware of her shortcomings (she had basically said "Shut up" to another director higher than her rank, to give you one of many examples of how bad it was, and she must have been in her 50s if not 60s).

Nearly everyone at the org apparently loved my work while I subbed for her for nearly a full month, and they eventually fired her and made me her replacement after another interview. It was definitely unusual...

So Snowflake is apparantly harder to censor? But if I run a Snowflake on my home internet, and my home internet never changes its IP address (my home internet has the same IP address for like months at a time), so once a goverment finds out my IP, they would block it, so its not much different from a Tor Bridge?

How is Snowflake harder to censor? Can someone explain it?

I'm looking to cart products around to sell on foot.

Basically I want a box on wheels with bars in the front that I can lift and then walk forward. Similar to the idea of a rickshaw, but instead of seats for people, a container that can hold ~200lbs of weight. Or the type of thing you'd connect to a bike, except I want to just pull it on foot. The added element is that I want to be collapsible or able to be dismantled when not in use. Surely this must exist but I have no idea what term to use to search for it.

"Rickshaw" mainly brings results related to pedicabs. The closest I got was "utility cart" like this for example. But the problem with these, unlike a rickshaw style design, is they don't scale well with the addition of weight where two wheels is easier than 4, depending on the surface. Also, versions that can be taken apart of collapses aren't rugged enough.

I've used a hand truck put into the flat configuration in the past. But that lacks the box component to contain the products. I can stack boxes on it, but that gets unstable. And, again, the 4 wheel flat design doesn't scale well with weight compared to the rickshaw concept.

So, yeah: what do you call that?

Just got here and accessing via my browser. Are there any apps you recommend above others for posting and commenting?

The key is 100% boycotting all services provided by a company. Wikipedia's list of Amazon product/services as reference (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Amazon_products_and_services).

Incidentally, I know entire neighborhoods that don't have other grocery stores besides Target/Whole Foods, not to mention that AWS is the cloud computing industry standard... As a personal example, my vet-prescribed cat foods are manufactured by Purina, a subsidary of Nestlé (needless to say, a separate but also extremely evil large corporation)

Is there a way to make the comments section font larger and is so, how?

I found this channel https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GULvtVCe-I and I'm going to post the screenshots below. The video has links in the description which prove the screenshots are genuine. For clarification, the 20 year old knew the 14 year old was 14 prior to these comments being made.

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T, the person with the green avatar and geometric name, says that the pedophile allegation is slander, because people can't speak for another person's intentions and people are interpreting those comments the wrong way.

I'm trying to get an unbiased judgment of these comments here. is there any other way those comments T posted could be interpreted?

i believe they were standing outside, all i remember is that it was a cia-centric episode where bullock pulls up his pant leg to show a scrape. i believe he says he didn’t feel it or something?