I really think it's environmental that will get you bounce back. And if you're in a pattern, break the pattern. Because once you change your environment, you will change yourself. To be honest, changing your environment is the only way to change yourself in my opinion. But there are realities to working class lives. And in a way, indirectly and hidden from plain sight, our freedom of movement is dictated by our ability to acquire capital. Like the children are only given a certain amount of calories in Gaza. "Put them on a diet" It gives the impression that the oppressors are merciful while at the same time, it kneecaps the liberation struggle. They do this to US in the workplace. They pay us enough to just get by. The whole life is dictated by our ability to just live in their obscure company town. Yet, there are still prison breaks, and there is hope that one day something will change, and if you make the right decisions, you can escape your fate to some degree. I just think about the allegory of the cave. I won't be going back into that fucking cave. Fuck the self oppressor aka the coward. They didn't listen before. Why would they listen now? It's pearls before swine. I will not internalize the slave mind and the guilt of all those that stare at the dancing shadows on the wall. I will avoid the witch hunt by not being seen. Justice is always served. Thank God all men die. Ps. You also might be living in a toxic culture. Starting a family in, say, like America, to me just seems socially irresponsible. If I lived in the wild like humans used to, I would work with a collective of people and we would build a community where we could withstand the peaks and valleys of uncertainty, in line with natural law. There would be no patriarchy. Born out of necessity in union with nature.