andros_rex
Yeah, I know and knew, hence not following that path. Went for teaching where I did 80 hour weeks for a little more than minimum wage instead. But we’re talking about “perfect” lives here - which for me, would be being a professor of Chinese history or math at a small liberal arts university in a small town where no one gave a shit I was trans.
I really would have liked to have become a history or math professor at a small university. Living close enough to campus to walk, getting to go to my colleagues lectures and learn new things, keeping a dozens of books checked out from the library at the same time…
Rape in the system is a feature, not a bug.
From a report about trans inmates:
75% of respondents reported at least one instance of sexual violence by Corrections Officers (COs).
This includes: • 48% of respondents who reported violence from a single male CO. • 32% of respondents who reported sexual violence from multiple male COs.
Respondents reported numerous types of sexual assaults by COs : • 68% were touched in a way that felt inappropriately sexual while they were clothed, including 57% who had their chest/breasts touched, 43% who had their genitals grabbed, and 55% who had their bottom grabbed. • 36% were asked to strip search in front of other incarcerated people. • 36% were asked to remove their bra in front of male COs during a strip search. • 27% were forced by a CO to perform oral sex. • 18% had their naked genitalia touched by a CO. • 16% were forced to perform anal sex by a CO. • 20% were forced to perform another sexual act by a CO.
Or the crisis line.
What happens is that they “triage” you, where depending on how you answer their script you get cops at your door and a trip to hell on earth, or you are on hold for 20 minutes to speak with someone who also is reading a script and doesn’t give a rats ass about you.
Maybe states that aren’t Oklahoma have mental hospitals which are preferable to drinking yourself to sleep, but who knows.
I used to travel a lot in eastern Oklahoma, and left a lot of stickers at gas stations in the middle of bumble fuck nowhere towns. Probably less smiles and more anger honestly, but fuck them. Also did some on a trip to Missouri, where I’m pretty sure it was illegal for me to piss.
“A trans person peed here” stickers in gas station bathrooms/other public bathrooms.
The Giant’s Drink from Ender’s Game always seemed really compelling to me. The emergent gameplay reacted to your state of mind and serving as some sort of arcane test of your mind.


You know that discussing the Bible is not the same as apologetics?
I get religious trauma sucks, but the critical analysis of primary source texts from the ancient Near East has absolutely nothing to do with your shitty pastor giving you a hard time for being gay.
I invite you to name a 9th century BCE society that fits whatever moral requirements you think are needed to make a culture worthy of historical study.