Exactly! Fuck if this hasn't been one of the biggest reasons I have been so obnoxious this time around. I'm triggered as fuck all the time, but not just because I'm a Libshit.
My family moved from a city to a very rural area when I was a kid, and I grew up attending very conservative (and extremely hypocritical) southern Baptist and "non-denominational" evangelical Churches and schools in the deep south during the 90s and early aughts.
I got way too comfortable thinking I had left all that shit behind me. Then suddenly one day it just showed up on my doorstep like it was back to finish the job.
This is why I always warn people when they say they'll just leave the country. Be prepared to start settling into a new chapter of your life all zen and breathing a sigh of relief, only for it to find you wherever you go. That is just the ugly truth of friendly fascism/Christian Nationalism.
I had no idea of the amount of corruption and shadowy money behind this movement when I was growing up. I didn't even know that it was part of a broader movement. I just learned in the past year that before Paul Weyrich and Jerry Falwell teamed up to create the "moral majority" in the 70s, most southern Baptists didn't consider abortion an important political topic, and that the southern Baptist church is on record as actually leaning more towards pro choice before then! Da fuq!?
My mind was blown because that is completely counter to the entire reality I experienced growing up in the southern Baptist church. There were definitely people in the church who were old enough to remember the church before the moral majority, but it's like they drank the Kool aid or had their memories completely wiped clean.
That's just fascism, especially when you start mixing it in with religion. It's like a zombie apocalypse. You can't just run away, and assume you escaped. You have to cut it off, and cauterize the wound or it will just keep spreading.