canadianchik

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[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 1 points 1 month ago

No I mean in the community you sent me, like women talk about whatever they want or is it a specific topic?

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 1 points 1 month ago (2 children)

Does anyone talk about anything here?

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 1 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Because I’m broken. I like to make people feel good even if that means putting them first. I’m also a people’s pleaser. I come off as this happy jolly person and soon as I hit home, reality hits. I don’t like talking about my problems because I feel like I don’t make sense or I’m a burden lol. That’s why I am that way. It’s dumb.

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 2 points 1 month ago

Yeah, I don’t blame him. It just didn’t work I guess. Things happen I guess. I will prioritize myself but it is hard sometimes since I lack motivation but I will push.

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 2 points 1 month ago (4 children)

Thank you so much internet stranger 💕… I am motivated to start, I know I need it, I know I have so much ahead of me and going into my future emotionally more stable and mentally, I will be better for myself and others.

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 1 points 1 month ago (6 children)

Honestly really scared… the initial phone call (asking me deep questions) was so uncomfortable but so comforting and relieving at the same time so I think it’ll be good! It will be online, they are mailing me a hard copy book designed for their program and every week I will have a call to go over and learn different behaviors and stuff

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 0 points 1 month ago (5 children)

Yeah he does.. I’m accepting it now. I’m too drained to keep trying. He couldn’t trust me and felt I didn’t respect him which is crazy because I showed him more love and respect than I had for myself. But whatever. People only see the bad and suddenly that outweighs all the good people do and people leave. Whatever. I’m tired of fighting. We will be friends, I’ve accepted it. I told him I won’t bring it up anymore. He will always have a place in my heart though. I told him if he thinks he needs to change himself for a relationship then I would be there to support him and I wouldn’t stop him from continuing to live and improve if we’re together. But it all ended the same way it does every time I bring up the topic again, just friends anyways. So yea, I’m drained, I’m tired and I’m done. This is how I am, I can only give/pour so much of myself out until I’m really done. Almost the same happened with my ex, he BROKE me.. manipulated me to get with him again saying he wants to die without me blah blah, we took a break but I realized I can’t go back because of the damage. And I was drained from how he made me feel in those 2-3 weeks. I no longer felt anything.

[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 3 points 1 month ago (2 children)
[–] canadianchik@lemm.ee 3 points 1 month ago

That’s a good point. I guess it’s hard for me to settle with everything that has happened but I’m slowly getting it. Thank u.

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