Science

This was a long, but a super interesting read! I had heard about aphantasia, and I knew that I had some form of it. I can recall a flash of an image, but I can’t sustain anything. I’ve always had trouble recognizing faces unless I knew the person well. And I can’t recall my past well. I can recall photographs better, which I think is similar to the face recognition thing, where it’s an image that’s built up over repeated viewings.

Another interesting thing mentioned was the person who always had music playing in their head. I always have something playing in mine, even if it’s a snippet that’s on loop. I don’t know that I really could “hear” a complete song from start to finish, though.

I always thought people talking about seeing things that weren't there was metaphore. It blew my mind to find out it was literal.

Had a partner who was like this. I was consistently baffled by so many things he had issues with. Any time we were discussing something like directions or driving or even just moving like a couch, he would be so confused when I would say "I just picture it in my head."

Cannot believe the ancient Greeks or Chinese didn't figure out that we had these totally seperate experiences. I first learned about it on reddit. People on both sides were shocked.

The inside of my head is a movie screen. If I have a picture to help me along, I can keep the memory accurate and sharp. My memories are very short video clips, but I can see them clearly. I can picture sitting around the breakfast table after seeing Star Wars, 1977. I can feel and smell the cheap, smooth texture of my parents polyester comforter, when I was old enough to stand up and touch the top.

If I lost this ability, it would be tantamount to being blinded, no idea how I'd cope.

I kinda get how others do without. Sometimes solutions to problems come to me by instinct, gut feeling. Playing Solitaire on my phone I have no real memory of what's in the draw pile, but I "know" there's another red queen in there. But I have to be moving fast, otherwise I stop to smell the roses, look for the picture. Does that make sense? I'm imagining that instinct is much sharper in people without internal pictures.

EDIT: Tested my wife. She's about totally eat up with aphantasia. No wonder I'm so fucking frustrated when she can't describe a thing! "Harrison Ford. Can you see his face?" No clue, but she knows him when she sees him. "Can you picture an apple?" "Red." I see every detail of an apple. I can "see" every pore in my wife's nose. Fucking mind blowing.

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